In this podcast I explore my isolation, similar to what I have before. But, the isolation is made worse, more recently, due to several recent factors and epiphanies. I'm not sure if I have a solution, only time will tell... --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

Battling my impulsive, reptilian brain is a huge struggle. But if I don't at least mitigate it, I'll spend my last days angry. And who wants that?! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

The Greek myth of Narcissus still remains a warning cry to the modern world, not in just how to not behave, but how to handle those around you who fail to adhere to its warning. How can an ancient story about a quite handsome youth who, when returning from a hunting trip, become so enamored with his own reflection in a lake, reach in to embrace and…

Here I summarize the reason WHY I publish the podcast, and provide a rather succinct index of my health history. I know I've provided quite a lot before, but wanted to start on the content provider with a solid format that old listeners may learn something new (or better understand) and also provide a background to newbies. This is also a quick sta…

Whew.... 30+ days of trying to get the new platform to work. And return to my podcast and gross health news. Yay!--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

In this final season episode I will provide a more lighthearted question and answer session as I read various questions I've received from fans. Maybe you?? Either way, all of it is ad libbed, so should be a good celebration of chaos, if nothing else.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

My quality of life has taken a severe beating the last few weeks, and has certainly taxed me. While I summarize one most the recent changes here, I don't change my views on my life and mortality. Also, some housekeeping due to technical changes are shared.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

The trumpets have sounded, and the horsemen have been set free on the land. Except, I have an extra 5th one for some reason. In this brief podcast, I provide a medical update, and some unnerving symptoms that may be signs that the end is nigh (for me, not you, or maybe you too? I have no idea, I'm just a podcaster).--- Support this podcast: https:/…

Some of my friends and family have challenged my atheism in the last few weeks, when referring to being able to turn around a dreadful crisis that I was in. However, I think another aspect is what truly helped me to see things through, as I attempt to explain here, and conclude it is a far more attainable and liberating strength that any one of us …

As I fight to regain my hospice coverage, while an emotional shooting range, I tried to use a strategy I outlined in Episode 30 on "game theory" in real life, and come to interesting results.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Be forewarned, this podcast will truly test your patience and ability to listen to my incessant rants. But, as Virgil once said, "All things can be mastered through endurance." So it is true here as well! Although I discuss "game theory," I can demonstrate that it applies also to real life, and it leaves me with a very dark, but perhaps unmoving, c…

I fight for my rights to receive treatment needed to stay alive for as long as I can, despite a terrible event exercised by what can only be described as a sociopathic entity.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Further updates to my long battle for my hospice rights and care. If you, or someone you know is in hospice, pondering hospice, or similar situation, this podcast may be quite useful. Or not. You get what pay for, after-all. Your current balance due is zero. Although, I would accept a real large goose egg. That'd make my day. Dunno why.--- Support …

The day I utmost feared has now come and passed. With it, some fears, but new challenges present themselves. Gee.... just like every other day in life!--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Many things have changed in recent weeks, very suddenly, and not giving much hope. The quote used in the title here, I use with hope that I too am as mistaken as Frederick.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

While I provide weekly updates as best I can, I think it's prudent to take a step back, and observe how my condition has changed over the past months or even years. Some observations may be surprising.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

After planning a podcast topic this week, I was thwarted at the last moment by an unfortunate event. It's high time I provide the necessary disclaimer: I'm a freak of nature.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Well, I finally got what I've been asking my hospice team for, for many years. Blood work. I didn't get all of the results that I wanted, but what I did get is not unlike being pardoned for your planned execution by quartering, but rather being told you merely only have to endure abacination.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/…

In this podcast I find myself struggling with anger, which has been tearing me down for years. I need to thwart this anger, and not turn to savagery.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I've learned one important thing in my life, and that is to say what you need to say to others when you can. It's not only good best practice, but an obligation we all have.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I dared to have a short conversation with someone who seems to cherish and love their drama and victimhood. How they responded surprised me.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I explore recent issues where I find myself lamenting the loss of my own identity. I question if I need to redefine myself, or has that not really changed?--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I originally planned to not record any podcasts during the holidays, but had to squeeze one in after hearing perhaps the most naive and asinine theistic phrase for the entire previous year.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I'm normally quite "the Grinch" or "Scrooge" this time of year. But, even with physical problems, I seemed to find heaps of laughter and joy. It's not too hard to find. My secret; I'm too lazy to be sad or angry for more than a couple days.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

I had a conversation with a hospice nurse I never met before, and she asked how could I be at peace with death. I couldn't give any abbreviated answer, but here is my subsequent attempt to do so.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I share three impactful moments in my life that are prime examples of ableism, a concept I long shunned because it sounded silly to me. But moreover, I resisted any labeling that may cast me as a "victim." Well, I was wrong. Very wrong.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

In the episode published close to Thanksgiving, I share a different perspective that I have formulated over the years where having gratitude does not stop at the end of positive experiences.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

A continuation of my last podcast, where I try to address the emotional issues that I experience in my long decline with Congestive Heart Failure.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

When I begun this podcast some time ago, I composed an episode of what it's like to die of congestive heart failure (CHF). Having now been several years into this long transition, I think this topics could be more accurately addressed today.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

Despite worsening health issues, which I will discuss with some brevity, I wanted to share the details of those who I adore with all my heart and who, even now, is the best part of my life.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

We all have this occasional feelings if miss opportunities, and "what ifs" - how we may have missed a chance to improve our lives, even if fleeting. I had such a moment recently, but here I share how I have, actually, made the right choices in life.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

I abhor victimization, and have never fallen into the trap of relinquishing that power over my happiness to others. Despite fleeting temptation, don't do this. And I'll explain why.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

A new health scare has reared its ugly head, and I need to somehow find out what it even is. Also, I need to brush up my Welsh.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

In a recent conversation with my hospice nurse, she asked particular questions that got me thinking. Specifically, am I "spiritual" or is there a better word?--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

In this podcast I provide a short health update, and then do my part to never forget a horrific event. Did you forget?--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

As I struggle to keep my life moving and facing terrible fatigue, I must find a way to be at peace with how I live today, to be able to accept whatever may come tomorrow.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Changes within my body in recent weeks have been mostly good, only some bad, but all of it is utterly confusing.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

After the trials and tribulations of the past few months, I've faced an arduous task of rebuilding and returning to my normal, boring life. Sometimes you don't realize the value of something, until it's lost.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Yet again, after all the bad events in my life, the enduring potty pad saga continues. This time it includes a visit from the police!--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Where have I been for the last month or so? Unfortunately, nowhere good. It was a journey through a viscous psychotic episode, a nursing home, and back again.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Some things start with the most innocuous events. And that is precisely what happened in my life, where my dogs potty pad sent me down a new path, I would never otherwise have gone. There's the well known "butterfly effect" but I have now discovered the similar "potty pad effect." www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface --- Support this podcast: https:/…

I wanted to give a full episode, as a sort of tribute, to my best friend. While only 20 lbs, and covered in fur, my best friend (prior and current) gives me tremendous support throughout all the years. He has been and continues to be essential help throughout my disease.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfacefac…

Last week I was caught in a rather depressive and exhausted state. When seeing a different counselor today, I had an epiphany that I used to slowly overcome much of this angst.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

This podcast essentially is an unscripted explanation of the weeks of sadness I've had, and it has oozed to the top, putting me in a rather despondent state. I try to talk through it, and surprisingly, find some comfort within myself.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support…

While not true in a literal sense, I am in the morally sense. What that means and how you will be on the cover too.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

Grown utterly sick of the standard medical advice, I provide a proper solution for CHF sufferers. No, I have no medical degree.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I've been levied more miserable symptoms lately. Among the worst is frequent collapsing and injuring myself even more. In this episode I describe the symptoms and their consequences. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #syncope #fainting--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface…

Major shifts in my battle against CHF have turned me down a dark road. I don't know when it will heh even worse still, but I'm afraid to ask.--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I wish to define a "full life" San demonstrate it is not merely a "good" life. Mistakes and calamity are central to living well. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #foregiveness--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support

I've been in a depressed dog lately, but someone close to me showed me another angle of this displeasure. www.Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface #death #dying #hospice #pain #CHF #depression--- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/yumyumfaceface/support